19yo//U.Penn//Poetry//Art//AndAllThatJazz
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the first time you meet her, the air left your lungs
in a tsunami. i remember because i was
sitting beside you, like always, and
you suddenly looked like you were drowning.
i remember you saying “i have to talk to her
or i will surely burn up”
and i just said
“oh”

the first time she and i spoke, i looked for broken bits
of her, just little things i could latch onto so
i could tell myself in the late nights that i had
something
but it turns out she is as lovely as you told me
and i don’t hate her at all because she makes you
genuinely happy and later when she and i had become friends
we got drunk together and she confessed “i was originally scared
you would steal him” and i started smiling but she continued, “but
there’s no way that’s happening”
and i just said
“oh”

the first time i met him he reminded me so much of you that
i couldn’t stop talking to him and even though his mouth
tasted like lemon cleaner and glue
i still kissed him in the dark night looking to see if i could
replace you because he’s a good guy and probably would make
some other girl very happy but i just wanted to feel
anything,
regardless of who was handing it out and
i regret that so much because you laughed
when you saw the hickies and bitemarks and said
“thank god i thought you were gonna be alone forever”
and i just said
“oh”

you love her you love her you love her why do those words make my bones feel like a broken ink cartridge why do those words hurt me so badly why is it that i want you to look at me with even a teaspoon of the love in your eyes that you give her i mean even if you’re alone with me it’s clear your heart is with her it’s so painfully obvious that she’s your stars and i’m just a stone in the garden where you grew up i just want to be loved like that with that power you shine on her with all that great white stormcloud fury but when he said “i love you” all i could whisper was a small and broken “oh”

in the late night he and i sat by the lake and kissed each other and i closed my eyes and he let the silence get long before he asked me if i had ever loved you and i thought about watching you grow up and how when we were little you were too scared to go anywhere without holding my hand and how when we were teenagers you used to text me every night because your hands shook while mine stayed steady and how you always come with a joke and a smile and how when you fell for her you broke the laws of physics and fell harder than newton could calculate and how if she makes you as happy as i’ve seen then i will keep you two together at all costs because you’re the most precious thing that’s ever happened to me and i must have kept silent for too long because he repeated “do you love him have you loved him all along” and i had to rewire the atoms in my tongue and suffocate my soul just to force out a very quiet “no.”

By "I’m with someone I really do like but I still have this deep deep feeling that I’m meant to be with my best friend and he’s with someone else." /// r.i.d (via inkskinned)

You ever read a poem so well written all you can say is damn

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"How to Stop Screwing Yourself Over" -Mel Robbins

I’m just sitting here like….. … this was exactly what I needed to hear. This was incredibly eye opening..and inspiring. Wow. I just finished this.  

Watch later

Let me know how it impacts you! Because it will! It’ll make you think and be inspired to take control of your life.

This woman is my hero and this is exactly what I needed to start my week omg.

If this is on your dashboard, it’s a sign from the Universe. Don’t ignore it.
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SKIP TO 16:23 

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This will change your mind, and actually, change your life.

Reblog this video for YOUR followers.

I’m so FULL from all the WISDOM, GUIDANCE, and KNOWLEDGE Iyanla has fed me.

If you feel stuck in life,

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If this is on your dash, it’s on your dash for a reason. Nothing is accidental.

Consider this a sign from the Universe. 

I would love to hear how this video impacted you—send me a message

ok but how is she 60? ? ? ? Wtf

it popped up on my dash about three times so i figured i’d watch it and oh my goodness. this is a must watch. sharing this here and on facebook.

i logged in and this was the first thing on my dash. so i figured there must be a message for me. i learned something.

I asked the universe for a sign today… I know with certainty that this is it!

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Needed to watch this again myself

This was eye opening

Something I needed to watch again. Thank you Iyanla for your tremendous insights and thank God for this crossing my path 5 months ago. Happy Sunday!
If this is on your dash, it’s a sign from the Universe. I guarantee it 🙏

This just spoke to my soul, thank you God

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Reblogged from yeahweightgain  1 note
Wow I totally didn't know that you could shrink your waist AND get your booty bigger. Whenever I asked anyone they always said you'd lose weight all over unless that's how your body distributes fat. Can I ask what you do to gain weight? Or if you have any links? I'm trying so hard to gain weight but it's difficult. Oh and your current measurements sound perfect already:)

yeahweightgain:

Girl, welcome to the club! The general consensus I got was also that it was a near impossible thing to achieve and that I was going to have to lose weight all over until I decided to take matters in my own hand. What I did was workout 4x a week (I do have weeks when I don’t workout as much so please don’t feel bad if you fall off schedule) with WEIGHTS. I was scared to use weights because I thought that I was going to look too bulky and that I definitely was going to lose weight but it actually built up my frame and made me look healthier. I personally use a 10lb kettlebell (very versatile) and I recently started using ankle weights as well. As for fat distribution, although I am slim, I do gain weight in my mid-section area first so I work extra hard on abs + waist. As for exercises, I do almost every single variation of squats there is out there plus donkey kicks and the fire hydrant. My favourite move for the waist that has really worked for me was the plank with hip twist! Also you can do it with your feet elevated on a chair to increase the difficulty. Check toneitup.com for some routines and their videos on youtube are pretty good too!

As for diet: keep in mind that you have to consume more calories that you burn! I try my best to have 3 meals a day with snacks which could be anything with high calories such as peanuts to ensure plus calories milk. I also recommend drinking smoothies too. Drinking milk is also an easy way to get some healthy calories and protein in (soy or almond milk is also very yummy). If you’re like me and you’re not used to consuming that much at once, try taking maca root which will stimulate your appetite (and libido so be prepared lol) and it also gives you a performance boost with the workouts.

The key to gaining weight and the hourglass figure is just making sure you consume more calories than you burn while keeping that waist smaller than your hips.

That is all I’m doing so far and I have been seeing some results, my jeans definitely do feel more snug and I have been getting compliments! I know this is rather long but I hope this helps! :D

I didn’t love him.
I barely liked him.
But he was heat at the peak of summer,
and he kissed like I was his last meal—
And I was looking for a body to drown in.
Back then, I had a candy-coated heart,
like flowers tucked in the pages of a hymnal,
and he had the thick, calloused hands
of a working man.
He talked like a friend,
but touched like an animal
and my bubblegum chest wanted that
in ways it couldn’t understand yet.
He asked what colors I kissed in
and the poet in me cracked open and spilled over—
Exposed like an open wound,
like all the soft, pink parts of me
I didn’t know about.
He was a means to an end:
my Machiavellian loss of innocence.
I don’t regret him,
but sometimes I wish I did. By First, by Ashe Vernon (via latenightcornerstore)

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lmaooooooo “niggaaa”

why he read his boy like that

LOOOOOOOOOOOOL

NIIIIGGGGAAAAA

LMFAOOOOO! I’m dying.

Reblogged from kemeticballbuster  42,848 notes

It is an interesting law of romance that a truly strong woman will choose a strong man who disagrees with her over a weak one who goes along. Strength demands intelligence, intelligence demands stimulation, and weakness is boring. It is better to find a partner you can contend with for a lifetime than one who accommodates you because he doesn’t really care. By Roger Ebert (via observando)

Miscellaneous

I haven’t posted anything personal of mine in an extremely, ridiculously long time. Which makes sense cause I haven’t written really anything in a while and it kinda bothers me. When I was a child all I ever wanted to be was a writer. And then I got older and my dreams became more “practical” and writing sort of faded away. I don’t really have a reason why. Just excuses. And those are tools. But I guess it’s never too late to start. 

So, I’m going to be 21 in three weeks. I like birthdays because they feel like personal new years and I like reading my horoscope (basic hobbies I know). Still haven’t figured my life out which is irritating cause I like having a plan or some sense of direction. But yeah anyways, I’m going to make some things I wanna accomplish before March 31, 2015.

1. Travel (Studying in Italy would be life giving)

2. Write a novel

3. Fall in love

4. Buy a pair of red bottoms for graduation 

5. Make a short film

Birthday goals

1. Get a new tattoo

2. See Phantom of the Opera off broadway

3. Attend strip club

4. Have dinner at Warm Daddy’s in Philly

If I can get these four things then I think my birthday will be a success. Don’t really need a party. I don’t need a bunch of people around me just because all in my face and me feeling obligated to socialize and mingle and yada yada. But yup. 21 should be wavy. 

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1. Stop faking your fucking orgasms. Society already tells young men that they run the fucking universe - if they can’t turn your cunt into a shooting star then for god’s sake, let them know about it.

2. Once you’ve stopped faking your fucking orgasms, use this newfound honesty throughout the rest of your life - stop ordering coffee you don’t actually like; stop sitting at a desk and allowing people to treat you like shit in the hopes that a meek attitude will earn you a promotion (it won’t); stop telling people they can finish your food when you’re not actually done yet. These may seem petty, but they add up, just like every orgasm you didn’t actually get to have.

3. If you wanna dance all night, dance all fucking night. Dance all night even if you have work in the morning. The worst that will happen is you’ll drink RedBull all day and look like a zombie - pass it off as a head cold to the real zombies you work with and flick through the embarrassing photos you’re being tagged in as you pretend to take a shit for some peace and quiet. I promise, you’ll remember dancing all night in ten years, not the suspicious way your boss looked at you that morning.

4. If your ass looks big in that, that’s a good thing.

5. You will never be as young as you are this second. Embrace it.

6. Embrace the fact that you’re going to get older. Ask your boyfriend if he will still love you when you’re seventy and your tits are down to your knees. Look forward to this time - seventy year old women are allowed to do pretty much whatever they want, and no-one can stop them. You can carry candy in your bag and not share it with a single soul. You can stay home all day and cross-stitch expletives onto handkerchiefs for your grandchildren and slip them under the table out of sight of the people you raised. You can drink whisky at 10am. Every phase of your life is going to be amazing for different reasons. Embrace that.

7. A lot of people will pretend to love Bukowski. Don’t pretend to love Bukowski if you don’t love Bukowski. It’s overplayed and no-one will mind if you actually like Virginia Andrews instead - the people who do mind are boring.

By Some more little life lessons, by Daisy Lola. (via spearmintblonde)